"I am looking for war, trying to understand my family, I am interviewing the enemy, and they tell me: It was dark; I was blown back ten meters; everything was flat; they were walking like ghosts, their hands in front of them; their skin hung like rags; they were crying for water. They were crying "help me," "itai," "it hurts." The whole city was silent, a city of ashes and not a single sound. It was black; it was red; everything was gray and hot, so hot; it was beautiful. A young woman tells me how white the bones at her feet were, the ones in what used to be in her living room, and how they gleamed in the sun. I am telling you how she described them. Her mothers bones." - from Skin, Topography of War: Asian American Essays, 2006 |
"I am the one who left. The calculus is not quite that clear, but it is true, a fact, and it serves for the moment. When I give my son a small medallion and explain to him that the figure on it is his guardian angel, who will always be with him and who can see into his heart, I am the one who cannot breathe when he hugs me and asks sadly: Can she see that I miss my Mommy? - from Fight Club, Because I Said So, HarperCollins, 2005 |
"After an hour of watching my hands twist while searching for my own painkilling sound, my water broke and I discovered just how slowly I could form the thought, What in the hell was that? Let me illustrate: First, something shuddered inside me and I heard the far-off sound of, say, a potato exploding in a microwave oven, and I thought, What in- . Then I felt my underwear bulge and I got as far as the hell-. Then the baby's no-longer-pillowed head came crashing down on the bundle of nerve endings in my tailbone and I thought was that? just as the amniotic fluid turned into a small lake around Craig's feet and he said, "What in the hell was that?" - from What My Mother Never Told Me, Mothers Who Think, Villard Books, 1999 |
"I think of all the soldiers in my family when I think of Pearl Harbor....But I also mourn the wounds in my family, made by all the things we do not talk about. Like the bitter ending for the young man at the Schofield Barracks: my great uncle, the war hero, who was buried without his Japanese American family around him because the U.S. government, which he fought and died for, would not let them fly from Denver to Hawaii to attend his funeral." - The Silence That Won't Go Away, The Los Angeles Times, December 5, 1999 |
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